Let's just be honest...

Facebook can be deceiving. According to my profile, I have a perfect little family, a clean home and cute kids..and we all know that is NOT true (except for the cute kids part). There is just no one here to take a picture of me when I am standing at the door crying and waiting for my poor husband to get home from work after a rough day. Or when I am standing in an inch of chicken broth bawling because I just dropped the pot on the floor....and it was a LARGE pot. Sigh.

Sometimes we have bad days....:O)

The last couple weeks have really opened my eyes to how selfish I am. I LOVE my sweet family. But, do I love the girls enough to stop baking, and to give them the attention they need? Or to stop painting a tree on the wall to sit down and read to Brooke? Or to just sit down with my husband and talk because I am in "GO" mode as soon as the girls go to bed? I am thankful that God revealed this area in my life. There is no longer a baking blog to update, or a piece of furniture that HAS to get done. I said no to the opportunity to sell my baked goods locally. I can play with the girls and make a mess without feeling the need to be cleaning all the time. Without all the added pressure and stress I have really enjoyed all the sweet times with the girls. These times don't last for long...they go by too quickly. I want to enjoy these precious moments while I can! I will still paint furniture, and bake cookies...it's just not on the priority list of things to do at the moment. :O) Nap time is now a time to read and relax. I have found that I have a lot more time to focus on the needs of others and pray for them. The friends that just said good-bye to their husbands who were deployed to Iraq...the friends that desperately want to become parents but can't, and the friend that just lost her precious baby...the friends that live in other countries as missionaries. I am definitely not a perfect Wife or Mother, but I want to try to be the best I can for my family! I am so blessed and SO thankful that God keeps teaching me new things through my sweet children.

First 911 Call

Don't worry...NO broken bones or anything. Just a funny story. Okay 2 funny stories.

I feel like I am living in a week of Mondays this week.

Monday #1 - For those of you who have ever taken a 15 month old to the Dr. for a check-up and shots....you already know where I am going with this. Multiply that by TWO and only one mama. All I have to say is...next time I am taking re-enforcement's. OUT OF CONTROL.

Monday #2 - This was really Tuesday but it felt like Monday. The twins are sick, so I missed the first day of Bible Study. While I was driving to the grocery store, I saw a flock of birds on the road. I slowed down a little to about 35 mph thinking they would fly away. They didn't. So I felt several thuds, saw a couple dead birds in my rear view...and kept driving. Went to the grocery store. Drove past 3 dead birds and a couple people pointing at me. Parked in the garage. Got the twins out of the car and had both of them in my arms. While going into the house I hear something. Look over and there is a bird stuck in the grill of my car. I screamed and ran into the house. I back the car out of the garage and try getting the bird out with a broom. It's leg was stuck, so it too a while. They it runs into my garage and I am chasing (while screaming) it around until I get it out. I felt like a crazy person, but I am kind of scared of birds.

Monday #3 - This IS really wednesday but it feels like another Monday. I was up with Brooke several times throughout the night. I think she is scared of the dark. :O/ So we are all very tired. I lay the girls down for naps, and go outside to make a phone call to the water company. I locked myself out. Sigh. I check all the doors and windows. My iphone is not working except to make calls. Landon was in a meeting today, so he wasn't answering. I knocked on Brooke's window to see if she would wake up and come open the door for me. Pretty sure I scared her because she never came to the window and had an "accident". I called 911 to see if they could help me. Right after they send the call out to have someone come over, Landon calls to let me know he is on his way home. So I called 911 back to let them know that I am just a crazy mother who has lost her mind. 45 minutes later I am back in the house, doing another load of laundry and playing with crazy kids who are supposed to be napping. I had to blog about this because it makes me laugh instead of cry.

My TO DO list for this week:

Clean the bird guts (sorry everyone) off the car.

Just cough up the $75 to get a garage keypad for future occurrences. There WILL be more.

Get to the Apple store to get my phone fixed.

Get myself a Diet Coke.

Dining Room Table REVEALED!

Here was the listing I saw on craigslist. I thought I was getting a great steal...and we did, it was in pretty bad shape and a LOT more work than I had anticipated.

Happy Birthday Brooke!

Just checked in and SO excited!

First family photo...HAPPINESS!

Love at first sight....a daddy's girl through & through

My BIG girl is a wonderful big sister. so sweet.

September 3, 2008. I remember every detail of that day like it was yesterday. I begged for a snack...my epidural wasn't working on one side...pure jealousy watching Landon eat a candy bar. he he. I also remember the fear of on my Doctor's face when Brooke's heart rate dropped and they struggled to get her out in time. Thankful I had a very experienced Doctor and a calm husband who just kept encouraging me. It was a very long minute, but we finally heard our sweet girl cry for the first time. Thankful for God's protection, we said hello to our sweet and beautiful little girl Brooke and our lives changed forever.

We never would have guessed that God would give us 3 baby girls in 3 short years. We are thankful for healthy girls that make us smile every day. I knew as soon as I held Brooke for the first time that God had given me an amazing opportunity to be a mother. I feel so inadequate and unworthy, but extremely blessed. I won't lie...sometimes things get a little overwhelming and crazy. Those "bad" days are completely worth it, when those sweet girls wrap their arms around my neck. I just can't imagine my life any other way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROOKE! We love you SO much!